"I cannot live through you again."

I close my eyes, searching for a vision of faith,
And I can see you there, with eyes like a dying star,
Trapping me in their beauty,

and I lose myself
All over again,
I lose myself, in you
I lose my soul to you
You move through me, a stormy night, raging within me.
Whisper in your ear as you reign over me,
“I cannot live through you again.”

I open my eyes,
to a dull reality where you are dead and I am dying
Everything is lost, within their hopes
Nothing left but the burning green sun,
The purple sky
The grey earth

And, desperately, we hold on to pieces of ourselves
Even as the pieces dig into our skin,
Even as our soul begins to bleed.

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These days I dont really like the person I'm turning into. Parts of me are well... decaying.